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This One Isn’t Easy

This one isn’t easy.

I don’t tend to talk about my fear of the future. In fact, I do everything in my power to try and avoid that conversation. How do I confess that I fear I might be making all of these mistakes? Since hindsight is 20/20, how could I be confident I’m doing it right now? How do I know if I’m writing to my future children in vain because that’s not even a process I’m close to having come true? All the time spent trying to correct the past for everyone else might be taking the most significant toll on my future. What do you do with something like that?
I fear I may never be a girl dad or even the sports dad for my son.
I fear I may never get to take my wife to see the northern lights and wake her up with some coffee and bread.
I fear I may never take my kids around the block I grew up on, the same tour I took with the ones I had no wall up with.

Those are all real fears for the future, yet the fear seems so pathetic in writing. The topic you can’t stop thinking of yet can’t find words to type on your keyboard. How do you put into words the reasoning for this keeping you up at night?

How do you overcome these fears, and where do you start?

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One response to “This One Isn’t Easy”

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    Nillani Fonseca

    With all that I’m going through right now…those are also fears of mine that keep me up every night I’ve always wanted to be a mom, I loved being a wife. I also wonder will I ever see any of that come to pass in my life. will I find love again? Will I have kids? it’s a scary thought honestly. It also makes me emotional when I think about it. And right now I don’t even know how to put it into words…it’s really hard because I overthink a lot and I want to overcome these kind of fears myself but it’s hard some days I pump myself up and manifest and say that I will love again I will have kids but that’s easier said than done…so for now I’m just trying to give myself a little grace be kind with myself. Ive started to work out and eat differently and love on me just a little bit more that’s my starting point for now because even though these are my fears I feel like if I prepare myself now to be healthier and to live a better lifestyle and be gentle with myself and speak positivity over my life when the time is right it all of those things will show up in my life. I pray.

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