It doesn’t blow your mind too that all of this could change in the blink of an eye?

That one day, you could wake up and decide you are done taking less than what you know you deserve. That’s not talking about others’ actions towards you; that’s strictly about the actions you take for yourself.

I believed things would need to take a dramatic turn to fall on their axis and change entirely. Like in the television show, the background characters would have to move to a new city or pass away for the main character to have a more profound realization of things going on around them. I’ve come to realize that it’s a lot more simple than that. Things are just a few decisions away from changing for the rest of your life. You simply say, “Hey, I’m going to carve out 2 hours out of the day just for me.” Then you stick to that. You build for 2 hours. You work your ass off in the gym not just to look better but to feel better. You make habits that you always wanted to build because you thought this is what success would look like.

You stay disciplined and look for challenges just because you know that’s the only thing keeping you from improving as a human being.

Today I woke up and decided that I’m going to be the person who always follows through on what the fuck he says. My word will be impeccable. I’m not going to strive for perfection because I’m sure I’m going to fuck up a few things, here and there. But oh well, it’s a learning lesson, I suppose.

Almost 30 years into this thing, and it just feels like I’ve been raised to look for love. I’ve built up a craving for it; I feel sick without it even. I think I missed the point. Love is anywhere you look for it. Even if it’s simply just minor signs, it’s that self-love that hits different. You shine differently with a little bit of self-love; just imagine having that in abundance.

So yea, maybe I’ll title this one Self-Love, and one day I’ll read back on this to say, “that’s the day I decided that I’m going to focus on showing myself more love from now on.”