I just want my people to win, man. I have not always been a person who wishes the best for everyone else. I think there was a point that I wanted to win so badly that I wouldn’t think about those around me. I didn’t care who needed a hand to come up with me. I never thought about how I could’ve helped others get out to the same shadows that I once was coming up in. There were times where I didn’t even reach out to see how they were fighting those demons that come up when you stay in the shadows for too long. I would have gladly gone without saying hello for a while. I made a ton of mistakes by not helping anybody come up. I was way too focused on my goals, on my ambitions, and my money. I’m not sure I’ve even gotten very far by being selfish. At this point, I know I’ve only gotten far because I’ve been reaching out for others. Now, I’ll gladly take an L for someone if that means it’s their biggest W. I take it as a lesson at the end of the day. I remember what it was like to be so desperate to win that anybody else’s victory just felt like a loss for myself. Those were the worst days. I was exactly what I hate now. I’ve been saying that there are people out there that want to see you do well, but never better than them. That mentality was so fucking foolish for me. I couldn’t stand to see other people get great jobs or get awards. All that came through my mind was that I should be the one getting that job or that award. I thought about that so much that any thought of congratulating my peers was erased immediately. There are so many congratulations that I owe to everyone else that I lose sleep over it now and then. How could I, the person who wants to see people win, be the person that used to hate on everything else everyone else had? I thought life was this grand competition that I had to make sure I won. Little did I realize I was only hurting myself. How else do you pay for those mistakes, but by taking a few Ls as a sacrifice to see everyone else see a few Ws?