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One Day Nowhere Near This One
One Day I’ll look back on this moment and laugh. I’ll laugh about the times I stressed the little things. How I stressed, wondering how I’d make it to the next day. I have been aiming to figure out what was behind the door labeled Christian Guzman’s future. I know it’s none of my business.…
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Future Kids Pt. 100
Hey kids You must’ve thought I had forgotten about you. Wild scenes there for a minute. Did you know that within the past few months, I found myself saying I would be okay without kids? I lied. It wouldn’t be the first time.I never thought you’d be something I had to lie about. I’m trying…
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What I Want the Most
What I Want The Most God has a funny way of making me realize what I want most in the world.Because this isn’t the first time I’ve prayed for this, I was told no. I’ve learned that God’s no is as powerful as when He says yes.I forget that.I tell myself I want this, yet…
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For Realsies
This time it’s for real.If you haven’t caught on, I say maybe a lot.Call it being totally unsure of everything.Call it being “wishy-washy” or hesitant.Sixteen-year-old me would call it being a little B word.I can’t say I blame him. Sometimes I have tendencies that my younger self may disagree with. I want to be better…
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Just Don’t Ruin The Music
One thing I won’t let you do is to have you ruin every song we sang together for me.You could keep my heart clutched in your hands.You could keep all of the time I’ve spent thinking of you and the time I’ll probably keep spending.You could even keep the notes that I always gave to…
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Can’t Change People
You Can’t Change People. Maybe people can change, but I think I’m finally starting to learn that I can’t bring the change for them.Can I be an example, maybe? But expecting actions to be reciprocated is like holding my breath and waiting for them to tell me to breathe. What’s the point? I’m only hurting…
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It’s Not About Me
I shouldn’t make it about me.But it’s my job to cheer you up.It’s officially my job.I don’t need anything in return, as frustrating and disheartening as it could get.But because it’s my job, I need you to stop getting in the way of doing it.As you may already know, I take my job very seriously.…
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Born a Soldier
Born a soldier, formed a poet.I thought I was born to follow orders.I mean, I don’t think I can blame myself for that.All the expectations set on me from birth. I’m sure even before.But what does a soldier do after the war? How does he find his purpose? Does he live off the victory? Does…
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Treat
Maybe it is a treat. Maybe not everything has to be a lesson.You could’ve been the happiest moment in my life. You also could’ve just been the moment in between the happiest. At least, I hope it’s not the case.Maybe I shouldn’t put a label on it.That’s probably what messes everything up anyways, isn’t it…
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Silence
Silence I could do with the low effort. Because my insecurities already assume that’s all I’m worthy of. I could do with the texts left on read. Because I probably come on too strong anyways. I could even do with the weirdness of it all. Because I could never understand the complexity of it all.…
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