One Day I’ll look back on this moment and laugh. I’ll laugh about the times I stressed the little things. How I stressed, wondering how I’d make it to the next day. I have been aiming to figure out what was behind the door labeled Christian Guzman’s future.

I know it’s none of my business.

But when I want something, I want it badly, and if I can’t have it, I feel like my prayers are being ignored.

I know that sounds silly.

But I’ve been doing things my entire life, aiming to do the right thing. Would it be asking for too much to have this all workout?

Maybe it is. For reasons, I can’t understand. And that’s okay. Not everything needs to be understood.

So I can hold my head high, knowing my plan isn’t good for the plot.