That’s all I ever wanted.

I don’t know what I’ve seen in the others. Maybe it was their smiles. Perhaps it was the way they smelled. The fact they liked everything I did. For others, it could be how they were the yin to my yang. They brought me peace. Some maybe were just because I couldn’t have them. Some felt wrong which made it fun.

I could list the details about you too. It could be how your hands always felt cold when I held them. I could say it was the way one must earn your smile. Or how your sense of humor skills could be at zero, but hearing you laugh never failed for me to do the same. And don’t get me started on your smile.

But there was something about seeing your eyes when you spoke. Seeing you put yourself out there with a passion. Being sad about your mistakes. Feeling sorry for your miscues. I’ve studied space and the stars for years, but nothing could prepare me for the complexity of what your eyes showed me. You never had to say much because your eyes told me everything, and it’s taken me a while to understand.

I wanted to save you. I don’t know if the past tense is correct here. Because who am I kidding? If you shined the bat signal, I’d be there with all the quickness.

What else would you expect? You bring out the change in me necessary to move on, and I help you heal from all the things you never thought you could speak about.