How cool would it be to be the one who figured it all out for you?

In a world in which I always had a tough time figuring out how to explain myself, or even expressing myself in that manner, how cool would it be if I was the one to figure it out for others?

To have been raised in a home where I couldn’t communicate how I felt because of the fear of not being understood or feeling like I was completing, how cool would that be?

Maybe that’s why I’m always trying to be the fixer or therapist for everyone else.

Why should I have to point out what seems like the obvious? Why can’t you just understand that not reinforcing some love would be what I want? I know we live in a world where actions speak louder than words, but dammit if those words are the alcohol to my wounds. These wounds must heal. Now I’m stuck here with infections like crazy. Sure, I’ll likely be okay, but these infections could’ve been avoided.

So, next time you wonder why the hell I would go out of my way, maybe the answer you’re looking for isn’t all that complicated. Maybe it’s easier than you ever imagined. Maybe I just don’t want to be in that same spot, and now it helps me feel better to see you be better.

Feeling helpless with what I’ve gone thru before it’s tough. But seeing me help you overcome it is priceless.