This was good practice.

I took a week off on the week 11/1/21. I know myself very well, and thinking about going back to work to say I did nothing would typically not sit right with me.

It still gives me the creeps to think that this was something I did. Usually, if I didn’t have anything planned for time off, I would’ve at least made a day trip somewhere—something to exhaust me. Zero days of the week consisted of me being exhausted physically. Mentally, I think I’ve been a little tired for a while, and I can’t say that this rest has done much to clear things up for me.

That’s okay. I don’t think it’s supposed to be easy like that. I was prepared for it to get tougher before it got easier.

As I said, I still think this is good practice for when I’m gone.

I could finally say that I managed to do nothing crazy for anyone or anybody, even myself. I guess that’s not necessarily true since doing nothing translates to crazy in my book.

I’m proud. I’m happy.

My biggest lesson is that these are two things I’ll constantly be working on. One being making myself proud and the second being working on my happiness. No “things” will help me reach that because I should be happy now by 28-year-old Christian’s standards. This should be it. I’ve gotten a little smarter now and realized that happiness is daily work. Pretending to be happy through everything is not the move, and I hope I can continue to receive the strength to be willing to fight for this happiness in the long run. I hope we all have that strength.