Self Frustration.

There is nothing worse than the type of frustration you feel with yourself versus the frustration with anybody else. I mean, sure, you could get your patience tested with others frequently. It doesn’t ever feel as bad as the frustration you feel with yourself because of not living up to your standards or leaving words unsaid.

Have you ever replayed a situation in your head and each time it comes to mind, it makes you cringe just a little bit because you can feel those feelings come back? I have, and I can tell you all about it. What sort of science is that? It could be logical for me to feel the same thing I may have felt ten years ago. I forget what I eat for breakfast on the same day sometimes, but you expect me to believe there’s no more religious reason that I remember exactly how I feel from two years ago or longer?

That’s where the self frustration comes in. I expect more from me. I’ve felt something internally that I know hasn’t shown out externally.

When’s the last time you felt this kind of beautiful chaos?