All The Power

Too many distractions.

Too many ways to go.

Has your mind ever felt like a busy intersection full of people?

There are so many crosswalks you could walk, but at this point, you feel like you have to make some quick decision to get away from the crowd.

All of that to find out that you’ve made it onto the wrong street, and you’ve been walking multiple blocks in the wrong direction.

Except now, when you look back, you realize you’ve lost sight of that same intersection.

It feels like shit, mainly because you felt like you had gotten off on the right exit. How could you be so sure? Everyone that got off on that exit was exactly what you thought you wanted to be like.

So, when you get back to the intersection, you realize you don’t want to be like any of these people at the end of the day, and none of what they do makes you happy on the inside. If you write down their happiness on paper, it might sound intriguing, but what good is being comfortable on paper.

I’ve lost all of my power trying to want everything written down for me at a young age.

I’ve lost all of my power trying to be the person I saw on my favorite tv shows.

I’ve lost all of my power, wanting the things that seemed like the right choice when I should’ve been following my gut.

All that to find out that the people leaving the intersection were your thoughts of what happiness should look like, but on this search for having the power back in my hands was always something that didn’t mean to be found with a compass or a map.

Timing is nothing. Time doesn’t even exist. Panicking to get to this finish line first doesn’t seem to make much more sense.