Ever since I could remember, I think I always have been focused on finding a reason to be alive. At a young age, I even began to believe that the world revolved around me. I thought that there was a group of people that would get together in heaven and watch my life play out.

I should point out that I’ve always been religious (having a nun as an aunt will do that to you). I always believed that even if God weren’t watching me at that exact moment because he had others to tend to, he would have others watch over me and guide me on the steps I needed to take. I would never feel alone, even when I was physically alone. I tried my best never to pick my nose because I didn’t want that to be something that someone saw in heaven and all that. Oh yea, I should add that I believed that these people watching from heaven were always watching from smaller television. One of those televisions that you have to get up to change the channel. Not very sure of why they couldn’t afford a big tv in heaven, but I guess I never thought they would need that.

Anyways, I was never alone. So, this puts tons of pressure on me always to do the right thing. I thought my reason for being alive was to change the world from a dramatic turnaround. I dabbled in a few things, and I’ve accomplished a lot more than I ever thought I would at this point. I thought I’d be known worldwide, but I guess that wasn’t necessarily the goal. I’ve concluded that I probably will never find a reason for being alive. The only reason I say that is not because I’m a pessimist or anything like that.

I don’t think there’s an actual reason for living life. I’ve started to figure out that you don’t need a reason to live. You’re here, so you may as well live your life; however, you feel it is essential. That’s how you’ll impact everyone else. I have no real purpose to find or epic journey to take. Life isn’t like the tv shows that I grew up idolizing and fantasizing about. Life is a lot more simple than that. You should just live it. There’s no need to overcomplicate what is going on around you. Everyone else will already try and do that for you. Life is all about embracing the path you’re on, and if you don’t like it, then guess what? You have the power to change it. If you can’t find the happiness you’ve always set out to be looking for, it’s time to start figuring out it’s already in front of you.