Have you ever wondered how weird it is that emotions can make you start crying? 

For example, when you’re sad about whatever it is, you can immediately start bawling. Even when you’re thrilled, you can begin to breakdown and cry of happiness. 

That’s enough proof to show how much emotions can become physical. 

I used to be a believer in holding things inside because I couldn’t afford to be sad for others. I needed to put on a happy face for everyone else, no matter how much everything else was bringing me down. I could never admit that I was down. All this would prove is that I have weak moments, at least that’s what I thought. 

Just the thought, right? What if somebody saw that I was a so-called wimp? What would everyone else think? Nobody else would understand, and I’m not sure I’ve ever been more scared of something my entire life. Sure, public speaking can make me nervous, but nothing like having someone not understand me. 

I saw something on social media about how building shit up inside of you would only hurt you more in the end. Emotions can hit you physically, and we can’t underestimate how hard it could be to let go of everything. The strongest people are the ones who wear their hearts on their sleeves, and I can probably argue that they’re the happiest too. Those people have taken the time to face their emotions and have learned from past mistakes—their brain processes shit. My brain forgets past shit. Completely blocks out the worst memories I’ve ever had. These are the moments I wish I could look back on now just to try and understand. 

Maybe one day I’ll figure it out.