There are times where I would prefer just to feel nothing at all.

Because feeling all I feel just doesn’t help me.

Headaches and all that that isn’t something I’m used to, and I’m not exactly looking forward to doing this same thing all over again.

Maybe if I chose to be numb, I’d be better off.

Wearing your heart on your sleeve just sucks that much more.

Why would I want to keep doing that?

Why does anyone ever choose to suffer when there’s an option just not to suffer at all?

Maybe choosing not to suffer is a superpower that I wasn’t aware of?

Maybe figuring everything out is not worth it.

Figuring everything out is just going to open up more hurt.

Maybe it’s best not to be blinded by the truth, but staying blind to it overall.

Maybe there’s not always light at the end of the tunnel.

Maybe there’s only hurt.

I never understood why we always told people to stay away from the light.

If they saw the light, that would mean they’re going to heaven, right? Don’t we always translate light to happiness and darkness to evil?

Why then would we push someone to go away from the light?

Maybe we are scared of going to heaven because, ultimately, nobody must look forward to dying that much.

Maybe there’s nothing after death, and that’s what scares us.

It’s the unknown shit that gets me.

Maybe I don’t want to know the truth.