There are a few things that I always say I wish I could do before I die. I still think of a few selfish things, but I think the “one” thing that tops my list would undoubtedly be making an impact on someone’s life. I’m not talking about any effect; I’m talking about a positive impact. I would love to be able to say I did that for just about everyone’s life I’ve made contact with. I think that’s why it kills me sometimes to think that I’ve done the exact opposite for some people.

I can remember times in which I’ve gotten pretty upset at people on the road and made it a point to make a face at them when I pass them up. There are times where I’ve been pretty spiteful and full of vengeance. I’m one petty person. I always have to get the last word, and my pride doesn’t allow me to not “win” in any relationship or friendship. That’s never really an option for me.

This probably influences my ability to be able to make a positive influence in someone’s life. This keeps me from moving on in a few instances, but I have to do my best to keep it pushing. I have to make an effort to be a better person because one of my more significant fears is dying that second time. You know how they say you die twice, once in a sensible way. You’re not able to call anybody up; you’re put in the casket. Then after you die, it takes, however much time to have everyone you’ve ever come in contact with, forget everything about you.

Maybe that’s what immortality is about.

I never considered myself a person that would want immortality, but I think I’ve always wanted more than just to drive-by this life. I’m 28 years old, and I think I still have a lot of work to do. Regardless of how much time I have left, I think the goal is to continue to keep doing the most that I should be doing every day.

I can’t imagine how I’ve allowed so many opportunities to change the world slip by.

My thought process is that sometimes the opportunities to change the world don’t present themselves this way. If they did, more people would go out and make a more significant impact.

Maybe those opportunities show up as significant ass challenges to push ourselves outside of our comfort zones. Nothing great was ever created in one of those anyways.