One of the significant phrases that I’ve been missing from my life is the one that goes, “we spend so much time worrying about making the wrong decision, not realizing that even the wrong decision takes us down to what we’re supposed to be.” I’ve always considered myself to be such an over-analyzer. I don’t want to make mistakes, and more importantly, I don’t want to be known for making mistakes. Other people’s perception of me has always been something that I take to heart, and even then, I start to believe the hype without ever asking questions. I don’t even know how another person perceives me, but I take time analyzing their perspective. I always knew that it wasn’t any of my business, but I never really considered the fact that their perception was not going to make me happy.

I believe we all make those sorts of mistakes. We always seem to wonder, “what will people think of me if I make this crazy decision?” Isn’t that wild? Typically when I think of any crazy decision I was going to make, it’s usually only crazy because I wanted it at that time. I wanted to do it so badly, and I had to label it as crazy because it would’ve been something that I wasn’t used to doing, which was taking a risk. That risk would’ve been something that I wanted at the time, but never made any moves because it was meant to be crazy.

Why do we tend to do that? Look back on all those “what if” situations and label them crazy or stupid? I know for sure that at the time, there was nothing I wanted to do more, but time passes, and suddenly it’s a foolish idea. What do we think makes it so stupid in hindsight? Does time make us forget just how we felt during that time to push us to that edge?

Looking back at all of the crazy, stupid things that I’ve done in my life, I would probably do them all over again, given a chance. Except, this time, I would probably do it even more. I would risk it all more often. Not be afraid of who’s coming around the corner that may judge me for doing something they wouldn’t ever consider doing in their safe zone.

Maybe the world would be a better place if we all had that mentality going forward. Possibly there would be fewer divorce rates, less dependency on drugs to escape reality, and more happy families. What do I know though, I’m just a 28-year old kid.