I have such a tough time figuring out what the hell a sign is from the universe. It’s hard not to think that the world revolves around you when specific shit happens. Imagine asking and praying to God for an opportunity to slow things down to give you time to start processing your thoughts, but then we get hit with this pandemic.

Have you heard that story about the man who was in the middle of a flood? He was standing on top of his car. A man on a boat approached him on a ship and said, “hop in, let me save you.” The man on top of his car replied, “no, I’m waiting for God to come and save me.” So the man in the boat left. The fire department showed up and offered to help and save him. The man replied, “no, I’m going to see if God can come and save me.” The fire department left. Finally, the National Guard showed up in a helicopter and announced they were going to save him. The man refused. He eventually died because it was too late. When he got to heaven, he asked God, “why didn’t you come and save me?” God replied, “I sent you a man on a boat, a fire department, and the National Guard. How else could I have made it so obvious?”

That story bugs the crap out of me. People say that there are signs everywhere; you just have to pay attention to them. When you pay attention to all the possible signs, you get called crazy and a little too risky. Those opportunities that show up when you’re not 100% ready, those can be looked at like signs, but then you get told not to overthink it because you’re technically not prepared.

Sometimes it just makes you wonder, which one is it? I don’t understand what signs to pay attention to and what signs just to ignore. Do I listen to the app that I downloaded that sends me a message once a day? Or am I supposed to be reading one of the many books I have on my shelf that I haven’t exactly gotten started on to keep finding my sign? Why was the entire world hit with this pandemic? Did everyone else ask for 2020 vision when the ball dropped on New Years Day? Is this the year that we’re supposed to work on ourselves the most? Or does it mean that we get a chance to start fresh? I understand that everyone can take something different from this entire year. To say it’s been eventful is an understatement. Those that haven’t received any sign from it are not paying attention, in my opinion.

Does God have a translator we could dial-up? Because I would love to translate this all before the end arrives. I don’t want to show up to heaven (I’d be so lucky, right?) and ask why He couldn’t be more evident with his signs. Imagine having God pull out a notebook of all the signs that I missed. I get semi-chills just with the thought of it.