I think I hang onto things for too long.

Most of the time, these things don’t do me any kind, and I still hang onto it, thinking that I’m just polite, or maybe I’ll need it in the future. I guess I never really looked at it as a problem, but the more I’ve been thinking about it lately, the less sense it makes.

Why do I need to continue to have everyone’s phone number just in case they dial? What’s the point of having everyone as a friend on Facebook if I don’t ever look at their stuff?

Why has it taken me this long to figure that piece out? I don’t know what I’ve gained from having these contacts. There are people on my phone that I would not want to call me, and I’ve still found myself saving their phone number for years without a text message or a phone call.

I wonder when I started making small decisions that added up to this. I have letters in my closet from when I was 13 years old written to me by people that I don’t even remember. I lost my yearbook from when I graduated high school, but if it weren’t for that, I’d probably be searching to do how the people that I had ‘Food & Nutrition’ class with are doing.

These things are just a waste of time, to be honest.

I think that lately, I’ve been thinking of having a clearer vision for 2020, and I’ve realized that it’s hard to have a clear vision when so many things are going to obstruct your view. Maybe I’ve had it wrong this entire time, and it’s time just to recognize and take action on it.

If I want to start making new mistakes, it’s time to erase all traces of the previous errors in the past.