You know it’s a problem when it goes from “when” to “if.” From plans to wishes. From “will” to “should.”
Dreams should never be put on hold, but I think those are the things that are put to hold the most. Maybe it’s from a fear of failure. Maybe it’s from a childhood memory. Maybe it’s as simple as just being afraid of getting to the dream and not being what you expected.
I‘ve been there and I think I’m barely learning how to get over the hump of “if”. I think that I’ve accomplished a lot more than I could have imagined at this point, and crossed off things from my bucket list that I’ve always wanted to cross, but there’s something about reaching your dreams that makes you just create bigger dreams, and bigger dreams after that. Is that TOO ambitious at some point? Is there a point that I could envision in which I’ll say, “alright, this is enough. I want to just stay here right now”. Honestly, I don’t know right now. I don’t think so. I can’t envision a point where I would just want to chill without wanting to keep pushing and keep stepping out of my comfort zone.
I think it’s important to push yourself out of that space every now and then. Figuring out what you could improve on or what you could take out of your life that just isn’t benefiting you. Whatever it is that is dragging you down or whoever it is that is dragging you down, maybe it’s time to slowly let it go. Settling is not for me. I was put on this planet to grow.