You ever been in love?

Have you ever fallen in love all over again?

What do you think is best? I’ve fallen in love, and I’ve fallen in love again. I think I’ll take falling in love all over again. Because now that I think of it, falling in love all over again is more about falling more in love. Think of it, after you tell that special person you love them, you know how tough it is to feel ever more for them afterwards? How hard it is to be so upset to the point where you’re raising your voice and still have the urge to hug the shit out of them or even worse, kiss them as softly as you can and see where that goes. Fighting just to understand, not to just fight. Letting things out and not letting it impact what you feel. Falling in love all over again is different.

Falling in love is easy. All you need is an awkward date that you don’t want to leave at first. A date where you get to know each other. Talking about deep things you never really talked to anybody else about and them answering better than what you ever expected. But anybody can do that at the end of the day. I think the trick is having somebody make you hate them so much that you’d almost picture a world without them and then it hits you that your world just couldn’t possibly be better without them there.

Falling back in love, or more in love, is even more challenging. It takes effort, it takes some vulnerability, and you have to suck up a bunch of pride. Asking for things you’d never ask for in previous relationships. Speaking about things you’d never tell anybody else. Remembering key details that seemed too small to just share with others. Feeling jealous just about the smallest things. Wanting them all to yourself, wanting the best for them at the same time.

Falling back in love will always be my favorite thing.