Hey man,

Just checking in. I know you’re just about to start investing your time in writing some of your thoughts in your head. I know you’re wasting countless hours on the phone with that little girlfriend, thinking she’s the one. I know you still think that nothing bad can happen to you. Spending all of your money and not saving a dime.

Before I get any further, I want you to know the reason behind me writing to you. I appreciate you…. so freaking much. I wish I didn’t try and change you so much. I wish I never tried to fit into the rest of society in the end. You knew you were so different than everybody else but at some point you just kind of sold out. You hit a breaking point because things got difficult.

Second of all, I want you to know that there’s not many days that pass by without me thinking of you. As strange as it sounds, I can hardly remember you until I close my eyes and focus. I’m not sure why we were the way that we were, but when I focus I can think about all the thoughts we had at 16. You’re so paranoid about making any mistakes. Crazy kid. At the end of the day, I’ve decided that I’m going to try and think of you less, at least for the complicated stuff. From here on out I’ll only reminisce about the good times and not focus on what I could have done differently. Ultimately, everything you’re doing now is helping me mold into the person I’m becoming and I really like who I’m becoming.

Finally, I want you to know I’m working on being a little bit more like you, but better. Improvement was always the thought in your head, and that’s one major thing we have in common now. I don’t want to do anything else other than getting better. Focus on YOUR happiness and forget what everyone else thinks because everyone always has an opinion. Life is short. Keep fucking around and make mistakes, I have your back regardless.

love ya.
-CG