When you dread hanging with your family for the holidays.

Know that we were just talking about how spoiled you’d be over a nice warm and tasty bowl of pozole. At the same time, I talked about how I didn’t want to have you any time soon. I’m in my late 20’s and I’m not feeling super prepared for you. I’m currently at a really selfish time in my life where I don’t think I could give you everything that I am because I don’t think I’m enough at the moment. The family never pressured me into working on you anytime soon, but the conversation has always come up so you know they think about it just as much as I do. While I feel I’m not ready for you right now, understand that everything I am doing is just for you and your future siblings. I know that contradicts what I said earlier how I am in a selfish time, but I guess the biggest reason I’m being selfish right now is because I don’t want to have any urge to be selfish later. You’re going to be my biggest priority. I know I shouldn’t start giving you pressure to play sports when you’re little, but I’m still going to put you into extra things like that. Your uncle and grandpa laugh with me about how we’re going to coach you up just like we did your uncle when he was a kid. I promise I’ll try not to be as harsh with you as I was with him. I can’t promise you the same about him. I’m sure your mom will be the one to try and defend you all the time. Please understand that I only do it to make you a better person. I’m not saying that being good at sports will make you a better person, but the way I look at it is that it doesn’t make you worse. Almost the entire family is a sore loser, but we’re changing that because we know you’ll be here one day. We can’t keep that going on in the family. All it adds up to is some really quiet car rides home. Whether we win or lose, I promise I’ll play some Blink 182 music that I’m sure you’ll love just like I loved it when I was a kid.

Anyways, the reason I’m writing this is because you were brought up today at Thanksgiving dinner. That says a lot about you, not even being in the works and all. So, if there is ever a moment you feel like you don’t want to hang with the fam for the holidays, read this over again. We want you there. You’re so important, we’ve been saving you a seat for a while.

Love you!

-Dad