While I hope it doesn’t happen to most of you often, but I think it’s likely that we’ve all been let down by someone in the past. The impact that may have had on us the latest times may not be as grand as the times when you were let down the first few times. In my case, I was never really let down by my parents, they always found a way to pull it all together in time to show up for me, whatever the case. I think when I look back on it, I was let down by my friends first. I was a super innocent kid that knew almost nothing about real friendships. Being that I was the first in my family to truly start speaking English, I couldn’t connect much with my parents in the beginning. This is probably the reason that I only speak Spanish in a respectful manner and fall behind when I speak Spanish amongst friend or family my age. I watched too much “Hey Arnold” to want to ever hang out with the jocks and I was frankly embarrassed about speaking Spanish at school. I always thought it was cheesy and only spoke it with those that struggled to speak English. That made me not fit in with my own people for the most part. Anyways, back to my point, I never really understood the rules of friendship for the most part and the first time that I was let down was when I told one of my buddies that I had really liked a girl in our class. The next day, he asked her out and they played in recess the entire time. Believe it or not, that was one of the toughest things to ever happen to me. Since that day, I decided I would never share my feelings about a girl with any guy again.

We all probably have a similar story. One that comes to mind, but then you say it out loud and it sounds a little off the wall, but you just can’t help it. I’ve sort of come to terms that it defined me for a pretty big part of my life. I guess you could say that’s where the trust issues started, lol.