I just finished watching Sunday Night Football and my beloved Eagles just lost a super close game. I can’t help but notice that I’m actually really upset. My stomach hurts but I’m trying really hard not to show it on the outside because what does it really benefit, right? This made me realize that I’m legit upset at something that I personally have ZERO control over, but I’m still feeling REALLY strongly about this. It feels like such a waste, now don’t get me wrong, I LOVE sports. I think sports is one of the best things to happen and come into my life. It brings such a passion out of everyone and under the right circumstances, I really believe that it brings communities together. Just like everything, it brings a few bad things too, sure, but for the sake of this conversation, I think it brings a lot of good. But DAMN, how come I can’t feel this sort of way for what I think is important on paper? I can’t help but think that my energy is being spent on the wrong things. This by no means equates to me not want to watch sports, but I want to reciprocate this feeling for what’s important in my life. For example, friendships, family, work, relationships, and hobbies. How does one do that? I think it’s taken me years to understand that what I’m feeling in the last minute of a close game is what I want to feel about everything because it matters so much more and I have so much more control over it. So, tomorrow, what I’m going to do is wake up early in the morning and get to the gym. I’m going to make my goal to live every day like the Eagles are down by 5 with 1 minute left in the 4th quarter. I hope if you’re reading this you understand, and even if you don’t, you could try and figure it out.

-Christian

09/15/2019