My parents are celebrating their 25th wedding anniversary next year in June. That’s a huge milestone. I’m sure they won’t ever admit it to me, but they practically are getting married because of me. Over the years I’ve realized just how big of a deal that is. I CAUSED SOMEONE TO GET MARRIED. Basically the biggest commitment you can ever make to a person on this planet. During elementary school, it seemed like majority of my friend’s had both of their parents with them and then suddenly I got older and it always seemed like the list of my friends with parents that were together was getting shorter and shorter. I began to question what the hell was happening. How could one possibly leave the person that they were supposedly so in love with at one point? I didn’t quite understand. That’s when I began to get listen. I listened to the arguments, the T.V shows, and especially the music. Heartbreak sucks, but what sucks even more is working through it. It’s like what Bob Marley said, “the truth is, everyone is going to hurt you, you just have to find the ones worth suffering for.” Many of my friends’ parents got together when they were very young just like my parents. Probably at about the age that I am now and hell, I honestly have no clue what I’m doing. Sometimes I choose to eat a hot Cheetos off of the ground if I can pick it up quick enough, how can I trust myself enough to commit to someone for the rest of my life? I mean yeah, my parents are together, but I’m witness to seeing them go through so much that I’m not sure if I would’ve wanted to stay honestly. That just speaks to them, I’m proud of them and it gives me so much hope for the future. On that note, I don’t want to do the same thing they did. I’ve been told more times than not that I’m so young and that I have so much time ahead of me before I should choose to settle down, but really what do these people know? I will never know and other’s people’s opinions shouldn’t affect whatever I decide to do with my future. However, I will continue with this…

I never thought that I would reach the point in my life where I’m at now. I’m 24 years old and I am actually considering settling down, getting married, and having kids. You see, when I was a kid, about 8 years old, I told my family that they would be able to expect kids from me at about age 25. Why? Well, my parents were 22 and 18 when they met. I wanted to be just like my dad. I still do actually. Anyways, back to the topic, deep down I’ve always wanted this, I just never thought I met the right person, I mean yeah, there were a couple of girls that I totally adored and thought at first that our wedding would be pretty cool, but that’s probably about it. Many of these girls were and continue to be good friends, however, I wouldn’t be able to raise a child with them. There’s only been one girl I’ve gotten to know that makes me think, yeah, that’s the girl who I’d totally raise my children with. It evens out, that’s not to say I think I’m better than anyone or anything. It’s just saying that I think her and I have THAT good of a chemistry. I mean yeah, our wedding will probably be super weird because well, we’ll practically have a classical American wedding mixed with a tamborazo. I’ve never seen that played out, but dammit I’m excited to see it go down.

The truth is I don’t know what I’m going to do and when I’m going to do it. That’s how I want it to be. Sure, some will say that if I really wanted to get married I’d do it already, but to those I say screw you. Screw you because you have no idea what happens in my head. Hell, I don’t even know. I just know that I have control and I can take it day by day if I want to. If it works out it’ll be beautiful. If not well then all the same to me. I can’t ask for anything better than what I’ve done with my life. Getting married and being single will never define me and I think that’s where I was going with this random topic.